Israel Vasquez Jr.

A 50 year old man once gave me this quote, after explaining that he had worked most of his life as a pharmacist, never married, and had no kids. He told me that what the phrase means is to be in control of your life, and thus your destiny. Doing what you love to do and being in control.

The phrase kept nagging at me and was in the back of my mind for a while. After a while i forgot about it… and went on with my daily living, working, eating, and paying bills.  

Right after my birthday, I basically had a panic attack, a nervous breakdown you could say. I felt that everything i was doing didn’t make sense, i was constantly stressing myself out with school, work, financial situations. So i decided to quit everything and take a break, after all i hadn’t taken a break for over 3 years, no vacation, and the past summer i had spent working straight through.

 I took some time off, went home rested a while, read a lot of books, and basically just tried to de-stress myself. When i felt that i was de-stressed, i came back to the city, and basically things began taking shape, and am currently working on some life plans i had always wanted to work on.

While i still got to work, i feel I have more flexibility now, with my current work situation, and also flexibility with school. I’m basically doing what I want to do. Then the phrase came back to me, being in heaven is basically doing what you want to do, being able to steer. If its not being in heaven, then at the very least steering your own path in life is the closest to heaven you’ll get.